Monday, December 26, 2011

broken hearts will mend.

I love the Christmas season. But, this Christmas was very unique for Austin and I. I truly felt the Saviors love for me and my testimony of His life, Atonement, and the Plan of Salvation was strengthened.

A couple days ago we went to the Doctor and received some very heartbreaking news. Our little baby had stopped growing. At first it was all a blur to me, I didn't know what the doctor was saying, I couldn't digest his words- it all seemed so surreal. As we got in the car it all hit me and it felt as though my heart had been literally broken. I felt so empty inside, hoping that there was some mistake. After several sleepless nights and many beautiful priesthood blessings- I miscarried our little one. My heart still aches as I long to hold our baby, but this past week my testimony of the Plan of Salvation has truly been strengthened. I am so grateful Austin and I were married in the temple and will have an eternal family some day. I am thankful for all the prayers that have been offered in our behalf. I know that this trial has already strengthened me in many, many ways and for that I am grateful.

7 comments:

Angelin Farr said...

Juli you are amazing. You and Austin are in my prayers constantly. I remember there was a time early on with Olivia I almost miscarried and was told there was a huge possibility. It was seriously the worst feeling ever. I cried when you sent me that message. But you are right, I really believe you will be that baby's mother in heaven. So something to look forward to! Keep being strong and I'll keep praying. Love you Juli!

My boy and I said...

Okay that little note above was from Isabella. Sorry, I guess I was still signed in on my mom's account. Love ya!

Kali said...

Juli you are so amazing. You are seriously so strong. I look up to you in so many ways. You and Austin are always in my prayers. I love you two so much and I am so glad I have you two! As I have watched you go through this my testimony as grown. You inspire me! I love you so much!!

Bitters said...

Juli, I'm so sorry for your loss! I totally know that feeling since I have lost 6 in my getting a family! I have a great article for you to read and I will drop it off at your parents! Your in my prayers and I'm here if you need anything!! love ya xo

Stephani said...

I love you and we are praying for you both!! Keep your heads high - thanks for your faith and strength! You are amazing - HUGS!!

Unknown said...

Sister - I am so sorry you have to go through hard things. As a mother if I could protect you from everything that is difficult I would. I would always want wonderful things to come your way. However, I am grateful for the testimony you have and how you always rely on your Heavenly Father during your difficult times. You amaze me!! You strengthen me. I love you soooo much!!!

Dustin Family said...

We love you so much!! We think of you all the time and pray for you too! Good luck with everything sister!