new life...

So much has happened! Pretty much I am a new person... I got a new car, new job, and I saw the boy.  I got a way cute, Toyota Yaris, it's charcoal gray and I absolutely love it, I love being able to come and go as I please.  When it loses it's new scent I will probably cry.  Thanks to everyone's prayers I finally got a new job. woot! I am going to start in a couple weeks at Mountain America Credit Union.  I will work M-F 2-6.  the perfect shift for a college student.  I finally get to hang up the good ole' apron.  Last but not least, I saw him! Today I was walking to the library and I heard this voice, I turned my head and there he was walking down the stairs.  I nearly passed out cold, my heart stopped beating, I couldn't think straight, I started shaking, I couldn't see and I just kept walking. I didn't even turn to say hello. What if I never see him again? I totally had my chance and lost it.  Oh well.  I decided I can't do this anymore.  If I found out someone was doing to me what I am doing to him, I would find it totally creepy, freaky, and seriously weird, I would think that person wasn't all the way there upstairs.  So anyways, I am not going to be the stockerish person anymore... no more chasing him. I had my chance and now it's gone.  Oh well. life continues.