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let me just rant and rave for a sec. I decided I need a boyfriend. but seriously not going to happen because guess what, I only attract nerds and the creepers.  Oh well.  what can you do with "stewart elbows," a high butt crack, and braces, even grandma told me braces attract nerds, dad told me to buy glasses and stop doing my hair and that I would really begin to attract some quality men... thanks guys.  I think I will miss the cafe. After next week, I probably won't even get boys to flirt with me anymore because no more cafe. I mean seriously though, the men that come into the cafe have to be desperate because none of us girls even look cute because a) we are wearing these ugly black uniforms that are seriously 3X too big b) we have icestorm powder in our hair and teeth.  c) we have syrups in our arm hairs and coffee grinds in our fingernails.  I mean honestly who finds that attractive? But whatever, if they want to flirt, I have decided I will just flirt back and at least it gets me the good tips right?  Tonight this guy came back a second time (after he got his drink) to get another, when they do that it starts to get awkward, especially when they say "do you have a boyfriend." I always just say "yeah, sorry," haha it's way funny.  So yeah, I am kinda sad because I don't think boys flirt with bank tellers because they know how much money they have or don't have.  I decided I need to treat myself, I haven't gone shopping in a long long time because I have a car payment now. I hate being in debt but I love my car so I think it all evens out. but since I am quitting nordstroms soon that means no more discount :( so tomorrow is payday and guess what juli is going to go buy her a pair of sevens and whatever the heck else I please. well it's 1:30 and I have to get up at 5 to go to the gym before work so I guess I am done with my soap box.  

new life...

So much has happened! Pretty much I am a new person... I got a new car, new job, and I saw the boy.  I got a way cute, Toyota Yaris, it's charcoal gray and I absolutely love it, I love being able to come and go as I please.  When it loses it's new scent I will probably cry.  Thanks to everyone's prayers I finally got a new job. woot! I am going to start in a couple weeks at Mountain America Credit Union.  I will work M-F 2-6.  the perfect shift for a college student.  I finally get to hang up the good ole' apron.  Last but not least, I saw him! Today I was walking to the library and I heard this voice, I turned my head and there he was walking down the stairs.  I nearly passed out cold, my heart stopped beating, I couldn't think straight, I started shaking, I couldn't see and I just kept walking. I didn't even turn to say hello. What if I never see him again? I totally had my chance and lost it.  Oh well.  I decided I can't do this anymore.  If I found out someone was doing to me what I am doing to him, I would find it totally creepy, freaky, and seriously weird, I would think that person wasn't all the way there upstairs.  So anyways, I am not going to be the stockerish person anymore... no more chasing him. I had my chance and now it's gone.  Oh well. life continues.