Finally Finals

Finals are here.
I hate them.
I have neglected school work hard core.
yikes.
I can't wait until it's over.
Please pray for me.
That's all---

oh and I still love this boy.
in case you were wondering.
we're going fishing this summer,
and on bike rides, and indexing,
and hiking, and more fishing,
and picnicking, and a little more fishing.
just 3 more days. 4 more finals.
can't wait.

twenty one.

I am freaking 21 years old in 2 minutes.
Yikes. ha- I am so old
I thought for sure I would go on a mission-
but that idea has been put on hold...
Life is so so wonderful I can't complain about a thing.
(other than my toenail fell off today)- sorry TMI.
I'm training for another marathon and they don't like that idea---
so they just fall off as they please.
We celebrated my birthday on Sunday with the whole fam.

Austin and I went to General Conference in Salt Lake it was super fun-
then came home and he met the whole fam- even Tif, Josh, Madeline and Moira (over skype).
I'm sure he was overwhelmed- even though he said he wasn't.
He's taking me out for my birthday because mom's going to Indiana and dad has bishopric stuff. woot.

I totally wear dresses at least 4 or 5/7 days a week. So guess what I got 4 new dresses! whoo whoo. I was super excited. and I got the NOTEBOOK! best movie evah.

I am so glad Steph and the Cobster could come over!
I have the best best mom ever. Isn't she the cutest thing you have ever seen?! I hope I grow up to be just like her.

The gang... I just love that my fam is totally out of control- I was a little nervous to bring Austin over but he survived. He got the warning on the way out though ha.

Alayna helped me open all of my presents- what would I do without her? Isn't she is the cutest thing ever!
21 wow. another year older. hopefully wiser too. this has been a very rewarding year. I've loved being 20. i hope 21 is even better!

amazed

tonight I am sick.
and can't sleep.
I'm at the parent's house in my amazing, comfortable bed.
Because they are the only people I want when I am sick.
As I lay here thinking- I realized how blessed I truly am.
and how ungrateful I tend to be.
I'm forever grateful for the Savior.
Easter is one of my favorite times of the year.
and my birthday is next week too! whoo whoo. I have the best bday ever--- april 6. (beat that!) ha.
I am so grateful that conference is coming!
I am beyond excited, my spirit feels a little homesick-
during conference the veil seems so thin and the Savior so near.
As I lay here thinking about how sick I feel and how miserable I am I decided to look up Elder Holland's Easter talk from April 09 conference. "None Were with Him."
Tears came to my eyes as I watched the mormon messages video on this talk.
Seriously take 4 minutes to watch it! It will get you in the Easter season way quick.

"None Were with Him"

As I thought about the struggles and trials that I have gone through in my life (as each of us have) these words struck me

"The Father briefly withdrew from Jesus the comfort of His Spirit, the support of His personal presence. It was required; indeed it was central to the significance of the Atonement, that this perfect Son who had never spoken ill nor done wrong nor touched an unclean thing had to know how the rest of humankind—us, all of us—would feel when we did commit such sins."

Elder Holland continues, "Brothers and sisters, one of the great consolations of this Easter season is that because Jesus walked such a long, lonely path utterly alone, we do not have to do so. His solitary journey brought great company for our little version of that path—the merciful care of our Father in Heaven, the unfailing companionship of this Beloved Son, the consummate gift of the Holy Ghost, angels in heaven, family members on both sides of the veil, prophets and apostles, teachers, leaders, friends. All of these and more have been given as companions for our mortal journey because of the Atonement of Jesus Christ and the Restoration of His gospel. Trumpeted from the summit of Calvary is the truth that we will never be left alone nor unaided, even if sometimes we may feel that we are. Truly the Redeemer of us all said, “I will not leave you comfortless. [My Father and] I will come to you [and abide with you]."

I am so grateful. I know that the Savior loves me. cares about me. He knows me- even though the world doesn't. and that is all that matters. He is truly and honestly my very best friend.

Austin got us tickets for conference from his bishop in Arkansas. I am so glad- I love going to conference!

spring break

First of all I just love this pic.
Kalster is really my bff and this pic shows it all.

We had so much fun in NY.
So many stories and memories.
Missing flight. Forgetting Cell phone.
Getting pulled over. Neon Trees.
Neck Pillows and tray tables.
Crazy taxi driver--- literally "taken".
Subways. China Town. Crazy bag ladies.
Little Italy. H&M. Gap. Macys. The Miracle Worker.
Wicked Lottery. Bargaining. Pictures.
Naked men in Central Park. The Met.
Strand bookstore. Pickpocketers and more...

Here is a pic of the boy... Megs and I had a pancake night when we first moved in (I totally had a crush on him then too, as you can tell). He came into the kitchen and talked to me as I made pancakes and that's where it all began- well kinda (we'd gone out before this).
Anyway- probably still like him a lot.
He makes me sincerely smile. and laugh. a lot.
I love how his arm fits perfectly around me.
or his hand in mine.
- side note. I have always been totally anti PDA. generally it makes me sick. Anyway we were sitting talking to his roommates and he just grabbed my hand. whoa. big move for me. but it was good. now i like when he does that. Anyway
I love walking with this kid and just talking about whatever comes to mind.
and how he listens. and how he cares.
I'm grateful for what he has taught me about men.
and that he honors his priesthood.
we are going to the festival of colors this weekend. woot.
we are going to conference together. i love conference.
I got a new calling this week.
1st counselor in R.S.
humbled? yes.
nervous? more than you'll know.
excited? yeah. now I have an excuse to make new friends!
more updates to come. but as for now I must write a paper that's due tomorrow...
I don't want to go back to school- summer please come quick!

Spring Fever

Something about the warm weather
Something about coming out of work and it's still light outside
Something about this boy
Something about frank sinatra. michael buble. nat king cole.
Something about knowing New York is a mere 3 days away.
Something about running 4 miles in 29 minutes.
Something about the Neon Trees concert.
Something about the dollar movie
Something about this boy...
makes me want to shout for joy.
shout for spring.

ok so... maybe this boy is more than a crush.
I think I may have just done kinda bad on my calculus test :(
because last night and the night before and tonight someone else occupied my time...
what the heck is happening. nobody has ever gotten in the way of school.
not good... haha. but i love it. and so does he.

today he extended his apartment contract through the summer.
he's staying for good. he said it was right- then we laughed.

cheesy cheesy. but true.
twitterpation i suppose

Another week come and gone.

I heart Wednesdays.
Mostly because it's produce day at Buy Low market.
and I go way early in the morning. with all the old people.

today I cried. not because I was stressed or anxious, sad or depressed.
But because I felt bad for someone. I want to help her but I don't know how.
I hope that I can be the friend that she needs.

today I cried. from laughing so hard. This man at work totally came in wearing bright orange basketball shorts with a red plaid button up shirt, white socks and black tennis shoes. When he left I couldn't contain myself. poor guy.

today I shouted "woot" way too many times. because I kept getting calculus problems right!
you'd shout too if you finally understood triple integrals and jacobian transformations. ha

today I was grateful. because it was the first time in a couple days that I haven't eaten cabbage soup for dinner. (I bought one cabbage at buy low a couple weeks ago and I have been eating cabbage ever since, the stupid thing has lasted me forever).

today my mind was filled with just little thoughts of {crush} ... haha. but that probably isn't good because I need to be focused! but {crush} probably makes me happy. especially when I find out he decided he is going to stay in utah for the summer instead of moving home (back east), which was his previous plan. whoo whoo.

I hope you had a wonderful Wednesday too!

p.s I just found this picture. funny story. we were in the Indianapolis airport at freaking 5:00 am. And guess what the fire alarm went off for like 5 minutes. My mom and dad just decided to put their earphones in... not connected to an ipod or anything. they looked kinda nerdy but I love them anyways. (note they guy in the background (left) haha).

best day ever.

wow. I have not blogged forever! Anyway I won't attempt to catch up because that would just mean epic long posts. But I will say this... I love love love life right now.
Today- best day ever.
A. Buylow market on Wednesday mornings are my favorite time of the week. I bought an eggplant today. what the heck am I going to do with it? It was so beautiful I just had to have it though.
B. Passed cleaning checks. woot. all week I prayed that I would and I did. yeesssss.
C. Preston saved me from this "creeper" at school today. what would I do without him?
D. Someone (my parents) sent me a diet sprite through the credit union drive up today. for cute. love them.
E. Had delicious cabbage soup for dinner.
F. Crocheted while watching American Idol.
F. Red alert. so best part of my day... I was just sitting at the table and there was a knock at the door. I didn't even turn around because my roommate answered it, then I looked back because it was silent and... yes my major crush was standing in the doorway. Ah man. life's good... pretty much this kid is amazing and I think about him a lot, we are going snowboarding this weekend woot.

How was your Wednesday?