Realizations

So lately I have just been like thinking about what I want to do with my life, who I want to be, what I want to become... blah, blah, blah the things every college student wonders about. Anyways today was Stake Conference and it was so good it was way refreshing and totally made me step back and look at life in a new perspective. One of the speakers was up talking and I was just taking notes when all of a sudden he stopped, naturally I looked up and there were all these people surrounding this little old lady in the front of the chapel. I am not sure if she just passed out, had a heart attack or what not but all these men carried her out and drove her to the hospital (I later found out). I am sure she just woke up today and came to Stake Conference not expecting something like this to happen. Life is so fragile. Things can happen so fast. I am so grateful for the amazing people I have met and the things each and every person has taught me. A lot of things that have happened recently have made me realize how precious the relationships we have with each person are. Stake Conference was so good for me- I love the Savior so much. I truly have the best family/friends and I am so grateful for all they do for me!

This weekend we were going to go up to Idaho and visit Grandma and Grandpa but Dad had a lot of Bishop stuff to do so we didn't. But anyways I absolutely love old people. They are so sweet and wise. I am so excited to grow old and have short white hair. When I am old I am going to be on a bowling league, go to water aerobics, book club, shopping with my friends while my husband goes golfing and if I am going deaf I will just smile and nod when people talk to me... ha. I look up to the elderly so much, they have so many experiences and advice to give us younger generation if we just ask.

Just a quick update on my life- I am still going to school and working at Mountain America Credit Union (which I love). Shockingly I am doing pretty good on my New Years Resolutions! I said that 2009 was going to be the best year yet and I really think it will be... ha. I just try to take each day at a time and live moment by moment (sometimes second by second), so I don't get stressed about things that aren't important. I don't really have any serious love interests right now. But I do love boys, seriously- I am way boy crazy. Sometimes it seems like the only ones I want though are the ones I can't really have (no they aren't married... ha) but either they already have a girlfriend and that's why I like them, they are living like 2,000 miles away, or we only like each other when the other person doesn't (I like him when he doesn't like me and he likes me when I don't like him...). Oh well though I guess I am content with life right now, I am still young. When I was applying for the education program I totally freaked out wondering if it's really what I want to do. So I am taking some art classes, creative writing, finance, and some education classes. We'll see how life pans out after this semester. Maybe I'll just go to school the rest of my life, a professional student. When the time is right, I will figure something out. Sorry this is super long... I guess I just started typing and before I knew it I had typed a freaking novel... hey maybe I'll be a writer.

Tagged!

  I was tagged by my cousin Katie to fill out this "I have" list... so here goes nothin'. haha.  The bolded ones are the ones I have done.

1. Started my own blog. 

2. Slept under the stars. 

3. Played in a band (Yay for middle school awkwardness! I played Stephani's clarinet. it was cool to be in the band.)

4. Visited Hawaii (hopefully I will go back someday!)

5. Watched a Meteor Shower

6. Given more than you can afford to charity. 

7. Been to Disneyland (it's free on your birthday this year so I am totally going to go, MOM you in?)

8. Climbed a Mountain (at 2:30 in the morning!)

9. Held a Praying Mantis

10. Sang a solo (I don't sing)

11. Bungee Jumped

12. Visited Paris 

13. Watched a lightening storm at sea

14. Taught yourself an art from scratch

15. Adopted a child (I think it would be way neat, some day I will!)

16. Had food poisoning (I know for sure, but probably)

17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty (I have only stood at the base)

18. Grown your own vegetables (I pretty much man the garden at our house, haha. no really I always pick and snap the green beans)

19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France (but I have seen so many famous paintings! Degas, Monet, Picasso, Van Gogh, Vermeer, Rembrandt... the list goes on)

20. Slept over night on a train. (My mom and I once slept at Starbucks in the airport, that was an adventure)

21. Had a pillow fight

22. Hitch Hiked

23. Taken a sick day when you're not ill.

24. Built a snow fort and slept in it.

25. Held a lamb.

26. Gone skinny dipping. (in broad daylight. yikes!)

27. Run a Marathon. (Just a 1/2... but this year I want to)

28. Ridden a Gondola

29. Watched a total eclipse (I don't think I have been alive for one?)

30. Watched a sunrise or sunset (Both)

31. Hit a home run. 

32. Been on a cruise. (someday my husband will take me)

33. Been to Niagara Falls. 

34. Visited the birthplaces of your ancestors.

35. Seen Amish country. (there was a polygamist community by Cedar City though)

36. Taught yourself a new language. 

37. Had enough money to feel totally satisfied. (yeah right I am so poor it isn't even funny, I am a starving student, if you can answer yes to this please deposit some money into my bank account. I bank at Mountain America Credit Union... thanks)

38. Seen the leaning Tower of Pisa in person.

39. Gone Rock Climbing. 

40. Seen Michelangelo's David.

41. Sang Karaoke.  

42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt.

43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant.

44. Visited Africa

45. Walked on a beach by moonlight (it wasn't with a boy though... bummer huh)

46. Been transported in an ambulance.

47. Had your portrait painted

48. Gone deep sea fishing.

49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person.

50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris (just the Empire State Building)

51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling. (I love snorkeling!)

52. Kissed in the rain. (I am still VL, and proud of it, one day though... ha)

53. Played in the mud (I have eaten like a 5 inch worm too!)

54. Gone to a Drive-In Theater. 

55. Been in a movie (my friends and I used to make movies all the time)

56. Visited the Great Wall of China.

57. Started a business (does a lemonade stand count?)

58. Taken a martial arts class.

59. Visited New York City ( I love NY! Some day I will live there. I want to go to NYU)

60. Served at a soup kitchen

61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies.

62. Gone Whale watching.

63. Got flowers for no reason.

64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma. (I always pass out, but I have done it a couple times. I am so poor I am going to start donating plasma twice a week that gives me almost $200 a month, pathetic I know)

65. Gone skydiving.

66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp (I have been to the Anne Frank and Corrie Ten Boom house in Amsterdam and the Holocaust Museum in Washington D.C)

67. Bounced a check 

68. Flown in a helicopter.

69. Saved a favorite childhood toy.

70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial. (and all the other Washington D.C. sites, it was neat)

71. Eaten Caviar. (I can't even eat shrimp or fish)

72. Pieced a quilt.

73. Stood in Times Square (I LOVE NY!)

74. Toured the Everglades

75. Been fired from a job

76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London.

77. Broken a bone. (arm, twice)

78. Been on a speeding motorcycle. (to see if I could hear Edward yell at me.)

79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person. (I don't really remember but I am sure we have gone there.)

80. Published a book. (not yet, but I am going to be an author one day)

81. Visited the Vatican.

82. Bought a brand new car. (woot! I love my Yaris. I drove it off the lot with less than 5 mi)

83. Walked in Jerusalem.

84. Had your picture in the newspaper

85. Read the entire Bible. (I think I did for seminary but I think I skipped a lot of Isaiah and Revelations haha)

86. Visited the White House. (Just outside though. We also went to the treasury where they make money which is super cool)

87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating. (never in a million years, I am borderline vegetarian)

88. Had Chicken Pox. 

89. Saved Somebody's life. 

90. Sat on a jury. 

91. Met someone famous.

92. Joined a book club. (when I am old I will be in a book club, bowling league, go to water aerobics, and shopping all the time I am so excited! But right now I just don't have time)

93. Lost a loved one. 

94. Had a baby. (let's hope not!)

95. Seen the Alamo in person. (umm... I wasn't even born)

96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake. (yuck)

97. Been involved in a law suit.

98. Owned a cell phone.

99. Been stung by a bee.

100. One cavity or less. 

This was kind of fun. Anyone who has time totally do it. 

can't live with 'em can't live without 'em

So I totally love my singles ward and just recently I have started to hang out with a lot of guys from the ward... Anyways I am wondering if boys nowadays have any chivalry? So I went on this date tonight and he came and got me (good thing he didn't honk or I wouldn't have come out!) and he even opened the door for me, good it was all fine but wait a minute I need to back up first of all I have always thought that this boy was so cute- he wears the cutest glasses, he combs his hair nice, has good style, and he is applying for dental school soon.  Perfect right?! So I totally went over on my texting this month, had to up my plan and I am still going to go over because of this boy. Tonight our date was way fun and stuff and then when he dropped me off he was just like, "ok see ya" WHAT? are you kidding me- he didn't even get out of the car to say good bye to me.  Well as I was walking in I thought what a freaking jerk, but- as I start looking back at our conversations I realized that he has absolutely no respect for women... good thing I didn't pursue that one huh. Then last weekend I went out on a date with this guy and guess how he asked me out. on facebook chat. totally lame- what is this world coming to? I really think boys just don't understand or something.  Anyways we went out on the date and he seriously talked 98% of the date- and all he talked about was his mission.  I squeezed in a total of 28 words max and it in sayings like, "oh thats cool" "haha" "oh really" "thanks- that was fun... good night" haha seriously.  I don't really know, don't get me wrong I have gone on a lot of really fun dates and stuff but the last two have been pretty weird! Anyways school is good, I am so excited for it to be over! - life is good- Work is good- I am going to work in the cafe again for the holidays and to be completely honest I am freaking excited! more to come...

Friends, food, and fun...

I haven't updated in forever and there is so much I have to say... ha. But I won't bore you with all I really want to say.  First of all I declared my major. yikes.  It was really hard because I want to do so many things.  I wanted to go into chemical engineering and move to purdue by tif and josh (I still might, who knows), graphic design, radiology and many more but... I am going into Elementary Education.  I think it will be really fun and I love my intro to education class. I hope to teach kindergarten but we will see how it all pans out.  I know that the picture is totally blurry but oh well right.  So like every Sunday or every other Sunday like 20-50 people come over for what I call, "friends, food and fun" basically we all get together and just play wii, pool, foosball, games, and just have a good time.  The boy in the back on the right is kind of my new crush (I have like 3). ha. Don't worry though, he got a hair cut (I liked his hair long... oh well). Anyways so this past week the ward asked me if they could do FHE at our house.  um. yah. it was crazy there were over 80 people and it was totally body-to-body it was way fun. I got a new haircut so that's what that picture is for, I never want to put pictures of myself on here but... mom says to and I guess I have to obey.  I saw the boy I used to kind of stock at school yesterday ... I said hello and yeah pretty much I am not in love with him like I used to be.  Mom and Kali are in Indiana this weekend.  I don't know if me, dad, and preston will survive. I have eaten cracked wheat for the past 3 meals, and dad hasn't eaten at all, mom's birds are going to die and who knows where the dog is (her prized possessions, in case you didn't know).  I know I have written a lot but I just wanted to comment about the election... I voted. and yes, I voted for mccain. I have to admit I am seriously considering moving to Europe, or Canada or something.  But, I think that our country will survive, I mean no one wanted Clinton to be president but we're still here right?  I think that will be the same for Obama, we will all be fine, I am pretty sure the world isn't going to end in 4 years, or hopefully not anyways... 

This last picture is just some of my ward buddies at friends, food, and fun night.  

yay.

This is my bff, Megan.  I absolutely love her, she makes me laugh so hard, and seriously she is so cute.  I am seriously loving life right now! I love my singles ward now, and I love my new job.  My favorite thing ever is to work the drive-thru.  Today this guy had like 4 transactions to do, and he just kept poppin' the jokes it was way funny.  For my intro to education class I have to do 20 hrs observation, today I went to this kindergarten class and the children were so cute! I think I want to be a kindergarten teacher.  At recess I was just like standing there kind of unsure what to do but this little boy was like hey will you play freeze tag with me.  I was like sure.  I was "it" and pretty soon all 4 kindergarten classes were playing.  They would all just tag me and pretty soon I was worn out.  Then I taught them red rover, it was so cute, they loved me! oohh. I seriously think I want to be a kindergarten teacher, I love the little innocent children and the funny songs they sing.  My love life is still kinda blah... but I sense it picking up, haha we'll see though.  

blah...

let me just rant and rave for a sec. I decided I need a boyfriend. but seriously not going to happen because guess what, I only attract nerds and the creepers.  Oh well.  what can you do with "stewart elbows," a high butt crack, and braces, even grandma told me braces attract nerds, dad told me to buy glasses and stop doing my hair and that I would really begin to attract some quality men... thanks guys.  I think I will miss the cafe. After next week, I probably won't even get boys to flirt with me anymore because no more cafe. I mean seriously though, the men that come into the cafe have to be desperate because none of us girls even look cute because a) we are wearing these ugly black uniforms that are seriously 3X too big b) we have icestorm powder in our hair and teeth.  c) we have syrups in our arm hairs and coffee grinds in our fingernails.  I mean honestly who finds that attractive? But whatever, if they want to flirt, I have decided I will just flirt back and at least it gets me the good tips right?  Tonight this guy came back a second time (after he got his drink) to get another, when they do that it starts to get awkward, especially when they say "do you have a boyfriend." I always just say "yeah, sorry," haha it's way funny.  So yeah, I am kinda sad because I don't think boys flirt with bank tellers because they know how much money they have or don't have.  I decided I need to treat myself, I haven't gone shopping in a long long time because I have a car payment now. I hate being in debt but I love my car so I think it all evens out. but since I am quitting nordstroms soon that means no more discount :( so tomorrow is payday and guess what juli is going to go buy her a pair of sevens and whatever the heck else I please. well it's 1:30 and I have to get up at 5 to go to the gym before work so I guess I am done with my soap box.  

new life...

So much has happened! Pretty much I am a new person... I got a new car, new job, and I saw the boy.  I got a way cute, Toyota Yaris, it's charcoal gray and I absolutely love it, I love being able to come and go as I please.  When it loses it's new scent I will probably cry.  Thanks to everyone's prayers I finally got a new job. woot! I am going to start in a couple weeks at Mountain America Credit Union.  I will work M-F 2-6.  the perfect shift for a college student.  I finally get to hang up the good ole' apron.  Last but not least, I saw him! Today I was walking to the library and I heard this voice, I turned my head and there he was walking down the stairs.  I nearly passed out cold, my heart stopped beating, I couldn't think straight, I started shaking, I couldn't see and I just kept walking. I didn't even turn to say hello. What if I never see him again? I totally had my chance and lost it.  Oh well.  I decided I can't do this anymore.  If I found out someone was doing to me what I am doing to him, I would find it totally creepy, freaky, and seriously weird, I would think that person wasn't all the way there upstairs.  So anyways, I am not going to be the stockerish person anymore... no more chasing him. I had my chance and now it's gone.  Oh well. life continues.